Hormone Issues...

The Saturday before Easter I brought Lexie to the Groomers. I thought, instead of having a little girl to go buy a pink ruffled dress for, (since that isnt happening with this baby) that I would get my other little girl all prettied up for Easter.

When I left her there at 8am she seemed so nervous. I was saying good-bye to her and I told the Groomers "I'm sorry, but she always gets so anxious when I bring her here" So the Groomer says to me "Its okay, she is probably just upset that you're leaving her" Wrong thing to say to a pregnant lady....

All of a sudden my lower lip started to tremble and I pulled my Sunglasses down over my eyes and left. I cried the whole way home. I dont know if its the pregnancy or what, but I felt like I was the worlds worst Mother at that point. The way she looked at me with those sad eyes...Ugh! It was just awful.

Needless to say she was fine when I picked her up. She was so excited to see me. She was soft and clean, she probably didnt even remember the tradgedy that had just occurred only 2 hours prior when she thought I was never coming back....

I realize alot of it was pregnancy related hormones. But this is the closest I have ever come to those feelings that mothers tell you they experience, when leaving behind their little ones for the first time. So I do empathize with them... I just hope I can keep it together better, I have never been like this before? Im always the tough one, atleast I thought I was?

Regardless, Lexie recovered from the horrific episode just fine and this is how I found her the next morning when Shane and I woke up....
Im so glad she is such a lady ; )

A Wonderful Surprise!

So when your husband comes home with this... 2 months before your baby is due, what does a pregnant woman assume?

A.) What will a newborn do with this?

B.) Have I really gained THAT much weight?

C.) Will the Hospital allow us to bring the baby home on this?

No, the answer is....

D.) This is for night runs out to the desert for when my Husband doesnt want to pack up the entire family and the Fifth Wheel for a long weekend. He can just grab the flat bed and go out by himself for a day.

See, now doesn't that makes sense? and to think I was wondering what he was gonna do while I was out on Maternity Leave? Im so happy that he can entertain himself....

(If anything, he deserves much more than this for accompanying me to the baby classes once a week that he so lovingly does without complaining)

So then.... He gets me this Wonderful Surprise~

and all is right with the world once more!

(I think this was a tactical manuever? But greatly appreciated none the less!)

2nd Night of our Baby Class!

So last night we went to our second class at the hospital for our 6 week enrollment of Child Birth Preparation classes. The first night was the instructor teaching us about our changing bodies and what we have yet to expect. It was informative and good to know......

But last nights class came Fast and Furious.... right off the bat - we got a video. Yes, the dreaded "Watch this Lady give Birth" video! Let me just add that she was in labor for 24 hours, no drugs, never screamed and 4 pushes the baby came falling out....YEAH RIGHT! Where do they find these women? Good for her... Not to mention they dont tell you ahead of time that your gonna get the full shot of the kid coming out. Which, may I add, I was not ready to see....they even showed the placenta! Yes... it was chillin on a plate on a table in the delivery room. I just about threw up my Twizzlers that I was snacking on like I was at the Movies. Of course, my Husband, the ex-Military War Veteran Doctor was fine with it. "Intrigued" is a better word for it. Infact, as I was hiding my eyes, he said that it didnt look any worse than BRAIN MATTER! OH... for the love of God... it just got worse for me.... and HE wasnt helping my stomach issues.

With all of this being said, you should know I have never been admitted to the Hospital, never slept in a Hospital Bed, I've never had a cast, never had any type of surgery and have only received 3 stitches in my little toe when I was 11 years old and it was in a clinic. So needless to say I have an unknown fear of Hospitals, let alone if blood or organs have to be involved, then I start to get pretty uncomfortable.

So after this Wonderful Lady popped out this kid, I was able to wipe the sweat from my brow as if I had just delivered this baby for her. The video was finally over, whew!!! OH...But wait!!! Then the instructor asked "Does anyone know what to people do with the Placenta?"....and Im thinking to myself...Oh please dont say that people keep it, what.... let me guess... they use it as a wall decoration, right? No, worse!!! One Husband piped up and said that some people EAT IT!

Dont ask.... Here came my Twizzlers....Then she said, some people donate it, some people do the whole Cord Blood Banking thing and then....

Yes... some people take it home.... and Bury it. Huh?

At this point I couldnt keep my mouth shut. I said under my breath to Shane.. "Oh sure and then during a family dinner in walks the dog with your placenta in her mouth, wagging her tail wondering who's gonna play fetch with me now!" So, needless to say we had some other couples doubled up over our smart ass comments to one another but, Come On! Who does that? She said they plant a tree where its buried, etc etc. Big Whoop! Throw that thing away... Baby is here, the placenta did its job, cut the cord and move on.

By this time I was ready for the class to be way over.... The fact that the instructor said the placenta is grissley in texture was not necessary..nobody should even know that. My brain had shut off. I was sitting there desperately hoping our next class is our Hospital tour... I cant take much more of this.

I do have so say though, I enjoy the time I spend with my Husband in the class. We enjoy each other so immensely and laugh so much when we are together. If all I ever get from this class is his undivided attention then I think it was well worth it. Our lives will forever be changed come June 3rd.... and I know we will look back at our days before baby and wonder what we did with all our time together. I cant imagine loving a little baby boy as much as I love my husband.... I'm so excited for our son to be born.

Maternity Clothes..

Okay, ALL Maternity clothes aren't so bad after all! I just ordered these from Motherhood Maternity. I cant wait for summer. Good thing this kid makes his debut first thing in June...I will be ready for the sun and my Maternity Leave for sure.

Baby Classes....

Im so excited for tonight. We start our Baby (aka~Child Birth Preparation) Classes at the hospital. We enrolled for one night a week, for 6 weeks. But guess who is putting on a really good front about it all? Yes, my Dear Husband.... I think it was a forced smile through clenched teeth really. I asked him if he was as excited about it as I am....his response was....

"If I act out enough can they kick us out of the class?"

Wish me luck...I think Im in for it now! Update to come soon.

Commitment Issues...

I (We) just cannot figure out what we want to name our son. I know we still have 3 months to figure it out and part of me is glad that I don't have to commit to a name yet, but the other part finds it hard to understand why this process isn't any easier to do? I have at least 10 names as options but none of them really grab me. Shane had one name he was ready to commit to but I just can't, not yet at least....

So I've conceded to the fact that our child wont be named for at least another 2 months. My goal is to at least figure it out by my Shower date, May 4th. But then again, I like unusual names so it may never be received well. Which is another reason to just wait until we are forced to name our child....once we are inside the walls of Sharp Mary Birch and the epidural has kicked in. Maybe in the next few months some happening will occur, or we will just hear it, and just look at each other in agreeance and we will realize we just figured out what to name him. One day I will tell my son how I pondered his name, going back and forth, just to make sure we gave him the best name we could. I just feel bad for not being able to make a decision but then again I had this same issue when we were house hunting...and we ended up with a beautiful home and I am still so happy with our decision and with our patience, we ended up with exactly what we needed at the right price.

So hopefully our patience and perseverance will pay off with this lifelong decision as well. I guess this is just the beginning though... Geez, Motherhood has already caused me headaches and the little sucker isn't even here. I guess this falls into the category of "Choosing your Battles" but I thought it was directly related to marriage, not to inner conflicts? So for now I will let it rest.

To Be Continued...

My Diaper Bag...

So I bought it! and told Shane it was my "Push Present"...its early, but what the heck... I wanted it and couldnt think of any other excuse. I thanked him and he still cant beleive how many reasons, and holidays, us girls can come up with just for an excuse to get a present. I also needed to make the purchase while I still have my paycheck coming in. I absolutely love it and for those of you who know me best...Its definately me!